过了

原来一切都来得太迟..
我输了..
输给之前的诺言..
输给自己说的大话..
我会一个人坚强地活下去..
虽然是痛了，麻了一下..
我相信我很快就走过来了..
因为很简单..
我并不深..
只是不小心踩下去了
要出来，还需要点时间..
你要好好过，我才能放心把自己拔出来
你要过得越来越好，才能让我弥补自己的过失..
你要一直都很好，才能让我明白放开你我有多后悔..

喜欢

我喜欢你！
喜欢到无法自拔！
我就是这样喜欢你！
喜欢你很久很久！
你不知道也没关系！
我知道就好！
你存在的一天
我就喜欢你那一天！
直到我不喜欢你的时候
你才能够逃掉！
我们来比比看！
是我单身比较久
还是你单身比较久
好吗？！

新的一年

我的新年
并没有很好
也许是没有在状况内
也也许是被他所影响

一点都没有很开心的心情
或许这一年来带给大家很多新的希望与祝福
但对我来说
就只是个昨天和今天的差别

很想到海边大大声地喊出我的辛苦
很想找个人给我打打出口气
2011让我经历了很多不开心的事
2011让我清楚自己对你是什么心情与感想
2011让我明白长大了，并不是什么都可以自己做选择
2011让我知道并不是我一直学会退后，别人就会停下脚步不再咬你
2011让我学会了很多东西
谢谢教会我这些的你们..

我很希望世界末日的到来
或许是因为我讨厌自己来到这个世界
我不喜欢这个没有自由的家
别对我说   我的家已经很好了，不要跟别人比较   之类的话
你永远不会懂我的处境
并不是想你肉眼看到的那么简单
不要说我有钱就可以活得很开心
我并没有钱，你们不要误会
我是个连一块钱都不舍得浪费的穷人
即使我是个有钱人，我也只是个看起来开心的空壳娃娃

呆在这个家
我一点都不快乐，反而让我感到很压力
我不得不听从你的话，成为你的的期盼
因为我知道你把一切都堵在我身上
所以我都从来不反抗你替我选择的路
不得不放弃自己喜欢的东西，
就是为了让你感到安慰
我只是想让你感到幸会
一路走来，我才醒悟
我的谦让，并不能让我换来一点点你的信任
不能够换来我一点点的自由
什么都不能..什么都不是
就只是听从你的.. 任你摆动的布娃娃

2012 了，每个人开开心心的笑着
而我，必须在泪水中度过
因为你的一个回头眼神
让我明白无论我做什么，你都不会相信我
我已经明白知道我已经毫无用处
只是个摆着放美用的布娃娃

你放心
2012，如果不是世界末日
在我还没离开这家，
我会一直当你的布娃娃
请你别让我有机会离开
不然我不会再回到你这个家
2012，如果是世界末日
我会很感谢让世界末日发生的任何一个神话
是你让我摆脱这一切挣扎
是你让我可以离开这没有自由，没有信任的家

在你面前，
我会装着什么都不知道的小孩
在你面前，
我还是会当个在你眼中20岁却好像 2 岁的小孩子
在你面前，
我会装着什么是都不知道的呆子

请你牢记
总有一天我会离开这个家，
但请你相信
我不会丢下你不负责任
即使我讨厌你把我带到这个家
我还是得承认是你把我养大
我会做回我应该做的本份

请你记住
我不会想念一个没有信任和自由的家

2012
果然只是一个 ‘一天’ 而易啊..

Happy New Year!

Hey guys!
Happy New Year 2012!
Well, very obvious that all of us have no gather together for any event this year.
Everyone busy with their respective stuffs.

But I'm quite happy that me, Jasc, JaeMin and She-Ring still manage to be with together for a countdown at Auto-city.
Initially we felt just so boring and lame at there as no any famous artist coming for the concert there.
In the end we ended up went to find Lyos them who work at Pacific fair.
By the time, I did not notice that it was nearing 12am and sudden a big boom sound!

Adorable!
Fireworks in the air!
So 5 of us just enjoying the nice view there without crowded people. :D
Still, we feel fireworks at Sunway Carnival Mall nicer. hehe

After wait Eirene arrived, party started!
Went to BED, which is a pub together. ;)
Still, Jimmy, Jeffery, Lucas, Desmond, Ivan, Guo Hao and others were there.
My very first time to there, and so as four of us. teehee.
A very nice experience though.
Back at 2++am.

Happy 2012 a brand new year!
All the best guys!

你留意過你的父母嗎?

你留意過你的父母嗎?
如果你在一個平凡的家庭長大，如果你的父母還健在，不管你有沒有和他們同住——

如果有一天，你發現媽媽的廚房不再像以前那麼乾淨；

如果有一天，你發現家中的碗筷好像沒洗乾淨；

如果有一天，你發現母親的鍋子不再雪亮；

如果有一天，你發現父親的花草樹木已漸荒廢；

如果有一天，你發現家中的地板衣櫃經常沾滿灰塵；

如果有一天，你發現母親煮的菜太鹹太難吃；

如果有一天，你發現父母經常忘記關瓦斯；

如果有一天，你發現老父老母的一些習慣不再是習慣時，就像他們不再想要天天洗澡時；

如果有一天，你發現父母不再愛吃青脆的蔬果；

如果有一天，你發現父母愛吃煮得爛爛的菜；

如果有一天，你發現父母喜歡吃稀飯；

如果有一天，你發現他們過馬路行動反應都慢了；

如果有一天，你發現在吃飯時間他們老是咳個不停，千萬別誤以為他們感冒或著涼，(那是吞嚥神經老化的現象) ；

如果有一天，你發覺他們不再愛出門……

如果有這麼一天，我要告訴你，你要警覺父母真的已經老了，器官已經退化到需要別人照料了。

如果你不能照料，請你替他們找人照料，並請你請你千萬千萬要常常探望，不要讓他們覺得被遺棄了。

每個人都會老，父母比我們先老，我們要用角色互換的心情去照料他，才會有耐心、才不會有怨言，當父母不能照顧自己的時候，為人子女要警覺，他們可能會大小便失禁、可能會很多事都做不好，如果房間有異味，可能他們自己也聞不到，請不要嫌他臟或嫌他臭，為人子女的只能幫他清理，並請維持他們的“自尊心”。

當他們不再愛洗澡時，請抽空定期幫他們洗身體，因為縱使他們自己洗也可能洗不干淨。當我們在享受食物的時候，請替他們準備一份大小適當、容易咀嚼的一小碗，因為他們不愛吃可能是牙齒咬不動了。

從我們出生開始，餵奶換尿布、生病的不眠不休照料、教我們生活基本能力、供給讀書、吃喝玩樂和補習，關心和行動永遠都不停歇。如果有一天，他們真的動不了了，角色互換不也是應該的嗎？

為人子女者要切記，看父母就是看自己的未來，孝順要及時。

樹欲靜而風不止、子欲養而親不在

你留意過自己的父母嗎?

时间

时间有一段了吧？

我们没再像以前那么冲动了啊

我们没了以前的感觉了

我们不再像以前那么疯狂了

我们也不再问候彼此了

那是为什么？

我们都开始为了自己的事在努力着

开始忽略了身边重要的东西了

或许友情对他们来说并不是第一的

有人会说：“友情能当饭吃吗？”

“友情不是我的第一！”

那他们，

会开始慢慢把专注力放在更重要的事上

而开始忘了以前大家是怎样，什么情况下变好朋友的

这些，不再重要了吗？

是时间

是它改变了我们之间的一切

是它让我们慢慢对对方失去信任

是它让我们之间慢慢产生尴尬

是它让我们不再像以前那么热情

是它让我们了解到还有更重要的是要做

是它证明了友情，只是个东西

都是它。。

你是曾经拥有友情的人吗？

还是还在拥有友情的人？

是在拥有着空虚的友情的人？

或是友情爱情分不清的人？

是拥有友情却站在不想拥有的友情的角度上的人？

还是，你不清楚你是现在是怎样？

My birthday

First of all, I'll try my best to write this post in English.

It's because some of you might don't understand Mandarin?

Today, 26/07/2011, is my 19 year-old-birthday.

It's really out of expectation birthday.

I thought I was facing it alone because today is, schooling day?

I've living for 19 years, and this is the first time I'm celebrating birthday in the school. With all my form sixers, I'm grateful and feeling to glad to have all of you as my friends during my last schooling year.

Although some of you I might not know you well, but somehow I'll still taking you as my friend. I'll still remember how you look and who you're when time passes.

To all the form sixers that willing to spend your time to celebrate my birthday, and spending money for the present, there're no words I could speak to thank all of you. It's really a good surprise and memory for me. I like it very much. I'm still willing to friend with all the form sixer, as long as you're not thinking I'm bad, or whatever.. LOL.

Thanks to Tommy and Jasmine, who gave me my first and second presents of the day.

Thanks for the watch, Tommy. That watch sure very expensive right? I'm kinda embarrassed to receive such expensive present larh. And Jasmine, you know I've got the same thing too in my bedroom and why you still buying the same thing for me? xD. Anyway thanks =]

After all, I would like to speak thanks to those lovely friends who willing come to school late to prevent caught by school, and bring a huge "Angry Bird" for me. (I know the back story of the bird xD)

They're :

1. Kelvin Soon
2. Yong Jeng
3. Chee Siang
4. Wei Huey
5. Meau Juin
6. Li Chia
7. Wei Ching
8. Yee Lun

Thanks to 8 of you. I'm embarrassing when bringing a huge thing beside me to walk out from the school = =! I'm feeling damn happy when 8 of you give me this huge thing! This is the first time I've received such huge birthday present. Thanks to 8 of you very very much!!!! I don't know what should I write here to represent my appreciation of you all. What I can say is "THANK YOU"!

And I would like to thanks to Pei Yen, for your lovely star. I like it very much. It's because I've the name 'star' for years, but I don't have anything about star beside me =3=! Really out of expectation that you'll give me present =D..Maybe it's because we've friend for years, but no present for years too?.. Surprise!! xDD

And then, I would like to speak thanks to Shan Ging. Thanks for the Spongebob. Actually even you present me DOMO, I'll still like it. Because, it's my present!!! But never mind. Just keep the DOMO for Rinkie xD. I'll still like the Spongebob very much.! Well, I'll follow what you've said, I'll put the Spongebob beside me when I'm sleeping. Hope there're no mini cameras inside the Spongebob to peep me! xD

Thanks to my bestie, Rinkie. Really feel happy when you're still remembering I'm tabooing with peoples' present me with necklace. But it's ok if you're girl. I'm willing to tie and bind by you forever to be your bestie xD. I'll wear it after my STPM. Promised =]. I'll learn to be a good girl so that my popularity will increase as what you've mentioned in the Minion card.

Thank you Aik Kiah. For buying me such cute cake and giving me the first surprise during recess time =]. I like the cake. It tastes so good. So sorry that I always like to bully you, perhaps due to your height or your cuteness? I don't know. Thanks for spend your time just to buy a cake for my birthday. I don't know how to express my gratitude to you, and of course the other =]

Next is Chia Liang. I know there've been some quarrels between 2 of us. And I don't know how to 'dilute' the feeling of awkward between both of us. And I know you're trying to talk with me. Me too. But somehow there's still a thorn between us. I hope time will erase all those bad memories that we're having a month ago. Anyway, thanks for your Blacky Bird. Abit run shape xD.

Jia Seng, I don't know what you want to tell me by giving me this cutie present. It doesn't suits my style larh. But I like it, cause it is cute. Perhaps someday I will use this thingy whack you xD. I would like to say that thank you for always swallowing own pride and let all of us satirize. And I'm damn admire your character, that is not get angry easily for whatever shits people talk about you. It's kinda sad that someone you like doesn't like you back. ='[.. But I believe one day in future, you'll get whatever you want due to your disposition =D...

Yau Yau and Wei Yen. I know both of you trying hard to find a present for me. Driving far to Pacific for finding me some presents. Somehow I not really know how to use the presents that both of you gave. You know larh, silver thingy easily get scratch when I put it on my handphone. =.=.. That's why I put nothing on my phone now. =3=.. Thanks to both of you buying me so much presents. And thanks For the Blacky bird key-chain =]

After that, I would like to thanks to two of you again, but this time adding She-Ring too! I love the last present that 3 of you gave to me. I'm so touch when I see the thing I want in front of me. The most excited part is, it still can transform!!! I was keep yelling "Oh my God, Oh my God!!!" when I saw the present! Thanks to 3 of you! Ring, I ♥ You so damn much!! Thanks that you're still remember me although we don't meet for quite a long time. Thanks for still taking me as Bestie!! I'm always missing you right here. ='[... Thanks to your blog post too!!! I ♥ it!! Damn ♥ it! ♥ everything you've done to me. Ek ek ek! Thanks to Wei Yen and Yau Yau. Really... The best present ='[..!!!!!

Steven, Andy, and Kent. Thanks 3 of you suddenly pop up in front of my door and pressing "Ting Tong~~". Thanks to Andy lied me that you're going to give me your present next time when you meet me. And after that straight pop up in front of my door and saying "Happy Birthday. We Hate You!". LOL.. Thanks for your MOL POINT Yap!!! I'll try my best to think where should I use that MOL. Hehhhh....

Nah Steven, come into my house just to shoot me my house air-conditional so hot huh? You're the last one enter the house and the earliest run away from my house =3=. I really get shock when you're coming my house to celebrate my birthday! Maybe it's because we never celebrate each other's birthday before? Hana sorry lorh your birthday I didn't prepare present. Next year larh my turn take cake to your house and smack it on your face larh ok? xDDD..

Kent!!!! Thanks to you come and eat a slice of cake and then sit beside to see Yau Yau and Andy playing Optimus Prime. I know it's a bit lame for you. Thanks to 4 of you willing to spend your time to celebrate my birthday. Really surprise for me. Totally out of expectation =.=!!! Although I still didn't receive present from you, it's ok and take your time. Early speak thank you to you first xD.

Yu Seng, thanks that you still remember my birthday although we didn't meet for quite a long time. I've heard that you're liking a girl in high school. XDD.. Aiyyaaa, thanks for your belated wish at 27th night. And thanks for your present at 29th. What a late present? Again.. Angry blacky bird. I wonder is it I look like the blacky bird? =.=!! Thanks a lot. You're the 4th person saying me "Got people wish still hiam? Got present receive still want hiam?". I think I really need to change my attitude - -!

Okies. End of saying thanks to my present giver.

Now is the turn I'm gonna speak my thanks to Handphone sms-er =]

1. Yong Jeng (9.35pm, 11.56pm, 25/07/2011, 12.02am, 12.05am, 26/07/2011)
2. Guohao (10.02pm, 25/07/2011)
3. She-Ring (11.58pm, 25/07/2011)
4. Chee Siang (11.58pm, 25/07/2011)
5. Rinkie (00.03am, 26/07/2011)
6. Andy Yap (00.06am, 26/07/2011)
7. Shan Ging (00.14am, 26/07/2011)
8. Zho Wei (06.25am, 26/07/2011)
9. Ying Xuan (06.28am, 26/07/2011)
10. Edwin Saw (06.45am, 26/07/2011)
11. Teik Koon (09.42am, 26/07/2011)
12. Jin Ling (14.09pm, 26/07/2011)
13. Wei Huey (14.26pm, 26/07/2011)
14. Lyos Lew (21.19pm, 26/07/2011)
15. Jing Peng (21.42pm, 26/07/2011)
16. Yau Yau (22.48pm, 26/07/2011)
17. Chun Yee (23.57pm ,26/07/2011)

And to those Facebooker. I think I can't finish typing all of your names inside here. There're 134 people wishing me happy birthday! 1 day per wish. I can live with all of your wishes at least four months. What a happy news for me =]. Although not all the Facebooker inside my friend list are wishing me, but at least I've got 1/4 of it. Thanks to those who've wishing me!!!! May God bless us!

Now is my turn to make a wish! I would like to make more wishes with the only wish!

I wish all the people who've wished me could get whatever they want, and of course live happily everyday.

I wish you, who is reading this post right now always dreams come true no matter what's happening.

I wish those who know me, and of course I know you, have a great everyday xD.

Song of the day :
Twinkle Twinkle Little Star - Foo Wah